Nevermind
I should be happy and yet I’m not.
There I was, so vulnerable, allowing you to be so close.
Then all was made clear and I got hit.
Hit really hard.
I should be smiling and yet I’m not.
Instead I want to scream.
Scream with anger, pain, hurt, annoyance, madness.
I don’t know what to do anymore.
I should be sleeping and yet I’m not.
Here I am, just waiting.
Waiting for something so stupid, yet I still wait.
Why is this so hard?
I should be over this and yet I’m not.
Over the smiles, the conversations.
I’ve been told to get away and so I play with fire.
I hold onto what I have, and I got burnt.
I should be happy and yet I’m not.
